I Have Lost

I rip hearts out

I reach into their bodies
and grab hold of there hearts

warming them with my hands

and squeeze till there dead.

I will grab your soul,

don't doubt it  ..    my body seeks for a new one

I have a collection

of hearts on a shelf      just sitting there, beating

thumping, still pumping, life, they are still working

I just keep them to live forever

or because I need the presence of a beating life near me, or two, maybe a dozen

whatever it takes

because I have to kill my own heart

because it has betrayed me
Because it fell in love with someone else

because I'm not good enough

because I lost

and so I lose
and so I lose


and so I lose

and I have lost


the one i love